What does it mean to feel truly alive? Like millions of others, Matt Haig has experienced the depths of depression. This is the account of his breakdown and subsequent recovery from suicidal despair and the lessons he learned. The story of how he came through crisis, triumphed over life-threatening mental illness and learned to live again. Moving, funny and even joyous, this is more than a memoir. A number one bestseller that helped change the conversation on mental illness. It offers a raw but hopeful insight on depression and panic disorder - whether you've experienced it yourself, or love someone who has. It's a story of learning about life through the toughest times, and a reminder that even in the darkest moments there are reasons to stay alive.